Fear?

I experience a period of frightening clarity in those moments when nature is so beautiful. I am no longer sure of myself, and all the great moments appear as in a dream.

Whatever I have tried to do in life, I have tried with all my heart to do it well. Whatever I have devoted myself to, I have devoted myself completely. In great aims and in small, I wish my effort could be appreciated. There are times when things fall because people tend to be ignorant. That makes me in queer mood.

I am no longer sure of anything. If I satiate my desires, I sin but I deliver myself from them.

If I have gained anything by damning myself, it is that I no longer have anything to fear.

I need to bring myself, by long meditation to recover the confidence. Human being must accomplish the settled purposes. Nothing can resist a will which will stake even existence upon its fulfillment.

I shall not render up to the grave. I shall go elsewhere on the Earth.